Take A Sad Story. Make It Perfect.

Do you have any friends that you love to death? Yes? Well, welcome to the club of heart broken stories and disappointments.
Some of us are disappointed in our friends. Most of us, are disappointed in ourself. Like we could have done better, or we did something we shouldn’t have, in regards to that friend.
The closer we are, the more heart breaking it probably is.
I believe God can make things better. In ways we cannot imagine. Like turning a hopeless situation into a hopeful situation. Sometimes we see a friend in such a tight spot, or choose the wrong path. And sometimes we try so hard to help, but really, nothing we do can help. Sometimes, I even feel like I have to leave my friend in the ditch for him to open his eyes to who God really is. Because at the bottom of the smelly, dark, trapped, and doomed well, the only way you can look is up.
But anyways, my heart is broken. And I believe for God to open the eyes of all my friends to see what God is doing in her life.

I’m Letting My Wife Go

Originally posted on Seth Adam Smith:

I’m sure it may come as a shock to some people, but I let my wife go. It was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, but it was the right thing for the both of us.

Kim and Seth WeddingNo, we’re not getting a divorce and no, we’re not separating. Truth be told, the practice of “letting go” has actually brought us closer together. But in order to understand what I mean by “letting go,” you must first understand that Kim and I are two very different people.

In fact, the differences between us were Kim’s primary concern with us getting married. “Seth, a fish may love a bird,” she said. “But where would they live?”*

I smiled at the comparison because it’s fairly accurate.

Kim and I are incredibly different people. She’s the oldest in her family; I’m the youngest in mine. She’s very responsible; I’m…very much not. She…

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What is so wrong in sex before marriage?

Originally posted on The Journey:

Warning: This post may be a little uncomfortable to all who share different opinions or values from the author. Please bear in mind that you are most welcome to have your own beliefs and you are not obliged to defend your stands. Thank you. 

Dear Friend,

Today, my post is addressed to a certain type of people. But you can still read it.

Dear Couples

I don’t know you, and I don’t know if you know me. But I have a few things to say to you and I want you to listen very carefully. Please understand that most of the time I write because I want to.. but there are few times where I write because I have too. Whenever I have to, like now, it’s because there’s this strange urge in me that I simply can’t fight. So if you stumbled upon this post, it might not be…

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Had A Weird 10 Minute Hiccup Bout

So things have been going pretty exciting. As exciting as bowel excitement. Sounds crazy. Pretty crazy indeed. Pray for me! I’ll be shearing my sheep- I mean, preaching my flock.. I mean, giving a tiny sermon the mount… this Friday. Am I excited? Yes and No. Am I ready? Yes and No. Do I need prayer? Yes and Yes. When things in my life are starting to smooth out (last week), SUDDENLY everything starts crashing down. First of all, my prayer and devotion life. Okay, okay, this one didn’t CRASH down. More like, sank in a really slow quicksand. But it didn’t diminish! Thank God. I really fought for this one. So I guess that doesn’t really count in things that came ‘Crashing‘ crashing down. *Jenkins, my lad! That Rewind button please!*

So, really, First of all, my health. I just started going crazy sick you know? What with flu, vomiting, diarrhea, fever, and all. Oh man, how I totally forgot that vomiting was not only unpleasant and uncomfortable, it just plain hurt like hell was a hot hot butter knife slicing through my abdomen, going so deep but never cutting through. That was bad enough. Then, things in my friend’s life start effecting me. Because like, I feel like I totally failed the one friend who I think needed me. Like if his life depended solely on me trying hard enough. But I didn’t, so he died. That kind of failure. You know how it feels to fail? It feels like vomiting. It hurts! Also, then, my family gets bombarded by bad omens. When I mean bad, I mean quite very. (One of it, please don’t make this public, is that while I was driving to work in a friends car, I dented his bumper! By denting someone else’s bumper! I had to pay cash to this guy, AND now I have to fix my friends bumper of his car that he was trying to SELL! Which means, he actually did expect it to be in a spic-and-span condition! Worst of all, is that I got sick, so I didn’t have time to bring it to the mechanic. Rich uncle friend happiness, down. Money I tried to save up from salary, down.) Not only that, then, things in youth ministry get hectic. Okay, thank God nothing here got TOO bad. I have a great team, though we could do better. And by we, I actually mean me. Ok, me won’t really replace we that well. Aishgkrrgh you know what I’m saying. At least it rhymes ok?

And because of all these things, these hiccups, burps, burpees, speed bumps, fences, feces, mountains, and more feces, my little sharing/sermonette/preachingette is behind schedule. And the one thing I hate is being behind schedule. Especially with big important things like this. And guess what I find myself doing in the middle of this stressful time? Blogging. That’s right. Not when I’m free, doing life. But when I’m full of feces to clean. (Yup, my bowel excitements don’t seem to have slowed down for some reason).

Okay stress is bad. But, it can be good if we learn from it. And anything can be good if we let God take over. So, really God, this post is dedicated to you more than to my readers, I think. Now that I am thinking about it. God, fill me up with your Spirit, your wisdom, your power, your healing, your presence. Hmm. Thanks for reminding me that I totally signed up for this mess, when I signed up for the War. And Lord, I say Yea, and Amen! I will overcome! And I will fight to see lives saved! Sorry if I ever doubted You. And that I’m the 2nd worst of all sinners (Paul’s the worst, we all know that). And that I’m in a perpetual crappy and unvictorious mood. Those are not your character. Teach me to take it off, and put Your character of love and faithfulness. And peace. Oh Dear God, do I need peace right now. Thanks for the spank in my ever active butt. And thanks for the hug. And thanks for picking me back up. You really do do what you promise to do.

What Is The Fear Of The Lord

 Proverbs 2:1-5

My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom     and applying your heart to understanding— indeed, if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.




So what is the fear of the Lord? I guess there’s only one way to experience it and find out.

The Champion

What do the words omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent have in common? They have the word omni of course. Duhh. Meaning “ALL“. For those who never knew, these words mean All-Powerful, All-Knowing, and All-Present. And it is most often used to describe God. Simply because God has all the power, He knows everything, and He is everywhere at once. For me, this is actually pretty hard to understand, grasp, or even accept. What is All Power? All? Every Power? Most Powerful? I once did a post about how big the word infinite is. What is Infinite Power? Unlimited ammo? Unlimited Mana? Overpowerful? Is He really able to do ANYTHING? From my pondering, I THINK I’ve found a way to describe all these All’s.

Key word is undefeatable. His Omnipotence refer to an undefeatable Power. Nothing can overrule Him. Nothing can overrule His actions. No one can undo what God has done. No one can do what God has done, better than He did. He is THE Top on the Power Pyramid. It is an undeniable power. He will never lose in Rock, Paper, Scissors. Just like His Knowledge. Omniscience. It is so undeniable, so real, that we cannot doubt it. We cannot say that He misunderstood. It cannot be anything other than the Truth. And He has an undefeatable presence. No darkness can drive Him away. No matter how far we run from Him, we cannot outrun Him. No distance, no fall, no temptation, no evil, nor sin can defeat God’s presence. No presence can have more weight than His. The ultimate heavyweight champion of champions. The Unlimited.

You know, those are already so hard to understand, yet there is still one more ‘all-‘ that I feel is the hardest to understand: Agape. All-Loving. Not that God loves everything, including sin. No, it is a fondness, a care, an intimacy, an affection, a devotion towards. So it is not meant for any action. It is meant for us, the sinner. Not the sin. God has an unlimited love for me and for you. I find it hard to understand God’s undefeatable love towards us. It seems a bit too crazy and a bit too extreme. I mean seriously, I can think of three very real ways people can lose love for someone. Even parents can lose love for their child. Firstly, actions. The most direct, yet the least effective among these three. Then there’s time. Yes time can make us love someone less. And lastly, there’s knowledge. How do you love someone you don’t know? And how do you love someone you haven’t experienced? Sounds like love is very defeatable. How can God be All-Loving? I don’t even know Him. I’ve run away. I’ve sinned a lot. I’ve sinned a little. I’m ashamed. I’m not interested. I’m too busy for God. I’m doubtful. I’m a hypocrite. I prefer another religion. I’m not spiritual. I’m too spiritual. I choose to ignore God. I’m a failure. I don’t even care anymore. I’m proud. I haven’t prayed. I never pray. I don’t want to try. I’m too broken. I’m hopeless. This is me. This is you. How can God love this? How can God even stand to look at me? Why would God love me? Can God’s love really defeat all that I’ve done? Can God’s love really defeat all that I am? Can He love me despite of this wreck and mess that I am? Can He???

Lord, Your word says that You are Agape. All Loving. Can nothing defeat Your love for me? I have given You every reason to hate me. I feel like I‘ve defeated Your love for me. Help me understand that I cannot defeat Your love, Your grace, Your goodness.

Though I don’t understand fully yet, I just want to say God, thank You, for being THE Champion Lover. Undefeated. Forever in a row.

The Clouds, The Sky, The Moon, And Especially The Stars

What’s up? Well, technically, What IS ‘up’? My up may not be your up. The world is round, so my up can be your down, left, right, front, or back.

What’s up? I’m sleepy, for one. I haven’t had an ‘update’ blog, two. I have a new job that I’m enjoying more than my previous job (though I’m still working in the same office), three. And I have a new phone today, four.

Happy Chinese New Year everybody! How’s keeping with your New Year’s Resolutions?