Sometimes I think I got my spiritual day figured out. I praise God for the day, then I tell myself that I won’t sin or fall into temptation. I plan my routes around temptation, and have all my escapes figured out in case I get in it. I’ve prayed and done my bible reading. But then, it can turn out to be the worse most undisciplined day of my life.
I sin, I cheat, I lie. I look at things I shouldn’t. I tempt others. I say regretful things. I let my emotions overwhelm me. I let my selfishness control my actions. What is up with me?
How can things make such a different turn in only a few hours? How is my Master going to say ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant’? I’m such a horrible steward of my body, emotions, mind, spirit, career, ministry, influences, and even the material things I have. Is ‘Perfect’ achievable?
I need to forget myself. Less of me and more of Him. More of the Holy Spirit’s power. Less of my strengths and strives.
I’m encouraged that even Paul says he’s not perfect. But instead he changes his attitude. He wants to look forward. To press on. I’ll have to keep praising God. And keep trying.
I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done. Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ and become one with him. I no longer count on my own righteousness through obeying the law; rather, I become righteous through faith in Christ. For God’s way of making us right with himself depends on faith. I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead!
I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.