so i did have a few thoughts to write about today,
and i cant help but think that i do blog quite a lot.
i like to share my thoughts.
though its very messy, but i like doing it.
and there are people who genuinely enjoy reading my thoughts.
so today, i was thinking:
why dont i register for those ads program where i can earn extra income (even if its a few cents per month).
i can put ads on my blog.
i update often.
with xanga FREE i cant do it! NOOOOO
if i pay for Xanga Premium then yes i can.
but its quite expensive.
migrate my blogging work to wordpress or blogger.
i feel so attached to this one.
lots of us dont like to ask ‘why’ at the right time.
this is because we tend to be afraid to look into ourselves to dig out real reasoning.
last week during prayer meeting, my senior pastor asked the whole group of about 20 people:
Why are you here in prayer meeting?
and she asked us to be honest.
dont just give really holy “politically (or religiously correct)” answers.
my answer is too simple.
you know my answer, i’ve shared this last time in a post of random thoughts.
i want to learn to really pray. and the best place to do it is with people who have a great prayer heart and fire.
my question to you:
Why do you go to church?
Why do you believe in what you believe in?
so in my previous post of the same title Leader,
i talked about how a pastor was thinking of training a leader based on what he saw a boy do.
stack the chairs and clean up.
well, some of you know that i myself am a leader in my church youth group.
funny thing is,
i had NO capabilities whatsoever at that time.
i was not great with leadership skills, i wasnt good in relating with people,
i hated confronting people, i was pretty happy-go-lucky (not as responsible as i should at my age),
i liked to make jokes at inappropriate times, and i disliked being on stage or in the spot light.
and i wasnt even CLOSE to SMART.
but one thing about me is that i just wanted to be there to help.
i wanted to serve.
i remember being so proud of myself because in my schools Christian Fellowship Club,
i attended every single meeting, i attended every prayer meeting,
and i wasnt even a leader of post in the club.
i was a no one.
even the leaders and the committee members skipped at least once.
anyways i was picked to be a leader because of my commitment.
and i loved my God.
easy as that.
Who gets to be leader?
The one who is comfortable under pressure?
the one who is comfortable in the spot light?
the one who is comfortable giving orders?
the one comfortable loving others?
Did you notice that i dislike selling an idea to people?
i dont like it when my Amway friends keep trying to sell me their product.
i said no bro.
i dont like it when my dad keeps reminding me about prayer meeting.
i said im going bro.
you know, its not whether i agree with you or not,
its just that you’re a bugger.
this is EXACTLY why i hear SOOO SOOO MUCH about why people don’t go to church.
they have no problem with Jesus.
they have problems with the christians.
what stuck up little humbugs we really are.
i have no solutions to this.
maybe we need to be less annoying.
maybe we need to be less proud, then they might trust our words more.
maybe we need to live a more fruitful life, be a living proof.
maybe we need to talk less.
maybe we need to sit back and let God do his thang.
what do you think we should do to stop SELLING our religion??