And I’m good, good, good to go
I got to get away
Get away from all of my mistakes

So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Consequences
Oh God, don’t make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don’t want to deal with that

It just now hit me this is more than just a set back
And when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn’t get that
And every trace of momentum is gone
And this isn’t turning out the way I want

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I spent all last night
Tearing down
Every stoplight
And stop sign in this town
Now I think there might
Be no way to stop me now
I’ll get away despite
The fact I’m so weighed down

All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can’t go on like this much longer

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, “I miss you son. Come home”
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was more than
The love I’d wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told so’s
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Because I know that I let you down
Now I don’t wanna deal with that

Responses To Hatred

 

Proverbs 10:18

Whoever hides hatred has lying lips,

And whoever spreads slander is a fool.

– NKJV

 


 

at first that sentence made me think

“dont tell also bad, tell also bad, then howww?”

 

but then it sparked me to think even more.

what’s the main theme here?

i think it’s Responses to Hatred.

 

which got me thinking even more.

what different possible responses to hatred are there?

1. i could harbour my feelings and keep it secret.

2. i could tell someone. which probably would turn out as an evil report and defamation (it probably wont turn out to be a neutral report about how to help someone out of the bad situation or action).

3. i could directly tell the person involved that i hate him/her.

4. i could forgive that person.

 

this thought led to yet another question:

why would the proverbist (the person who wrote the proverb? haha) only mention no 1. and no. 2.?

i would have written:

1. Whoever hides hatred has lying lips,

2. Whoever spreads slander is a fool,

3. And whoever confronts hate confronts trouble.


but, i’m not wise old solomon.

 

hmmm.

1. it’s totally bad to slander. that’s obvious.

2. but it’s totally even worse to keep hatred inside

cuz it’ll grow into a huge whoopee cushion of hate and anger, and explode, one day, at the slightest prick from the bluntest kiddy toy scissors.

 

3. is it bad to confront?

wise old solomon already addresses this issue in Proverbs 27:6

Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses.

 

ok it is good to confront.

but is it easy?

i hate confronting people when they do wrong.

it’s just difficult to get the right mixture of wisdom, strictness, mercy and love into it.

it’s also (more) difficult to be able to accept that the response may not be what we hoped for.

 

also, not forgetting

its just impossible to do in love… if we hate that person right?

 

 

but anyways.

i like to keep things simple here.

as a final conclusion, we should probably learn from this guy:

 

 

4. Hate is Bad

 

 

I’m Sleepy, It’s Midnight, Perfect Time For

100 Girly Questions Survey

 

Do you wear: alot of makeup, some makeup, no makeup.

That’s not a proper question. But I think I know what you’re up to. By definition of makeup, you mean anything I put on my face to enhance my features? Yes. I put my face cream to keep my skin from getting to dry.

 

Whats your favorite makeup?

Mascara. Oh wait. You mean on me?!

 

Could you go out in public without make up?

Uhhh. It’s like asking if I mind going to space without my glasses. Duhh.

 

Do you do your nails oftenly?

Do what? And how do you do something ‘oftenly’?

 

What color are your fingernails?

Reddish, pinkish, whitish. Depends on where and when.

 

How about your toe nails?

Reddish, pinkish, whitish. Waitttt. Are you asking what colour I’ve painted it?! This IS some weird girly survey.

 

Heels or flats?

I like it when girls wear heels. I personally like wearing flats. Can’t find any heels with my size anyways.

 

Eyeliner or mascara?
I gave my answer above.

 

Lip gloss or lipstick?
I’ve never tried lipstick. Hmmm. I heard chocolate lipstick tastes nice.

 

Eyelash curler or tweezer?
Eyelash curlers definitely. How in the world do I defend myself with some tweezers? Gosh.

 

Vans or converse?
What sort of a vehicle is a converse?

 

Nike or adidas?
I’d work for Pixar.

 

Myspace or facebook?

Facebook is too addictive. Myspace has too many weird people. Wait… you mean facebook? Is this another make up question?

 

Pink or red?
Pink is just a whiter version of red. So. Pink.

Rock or pop
Definitely rock. But I do like the young Britney spears pop.

 

What color is your bra?
Uhhhh. I checked and double checked. I’m not wearing any right now.

 

Are you wearing skinny jeans?
No.

 

You think you set or follow trends?
I’m a weirdo. So yes I set trends.

 

Have you ever done something just to fit in?
Yes. I learned to converse in Chinese.

 

Do you go to the mall oftenly?
Quite oftenly maybe not. Probably. But sometimes I quite oftenly maybe do.

 

Do you have many friends?

FB? Or real life? I have FB friends who are actually NOT my friends. So it would seem that I have more FB friends than real friends. Yet, I also have many real life friends who DON’T have an FB account. So maybe my FB friends = real life friends. I have that answers your question.

 

Do you dislike any of your friends?

Of course. Unfortunately, some of them are the ones I use MORE energy to try to love.

 

Whats your BESTEST friend’s ever name?

Honestly I see a huge grammatical mistake. But I shall humor you. Right now it’s Jeremy (he’s been my bestie since the first week of primary one. And at that time, we still had trouble remembering each others names). Yet also Ivan and Danielle, though I haven’t hung with them or had quality time with them recently.

 

Have you ever had a down moment with that person?
That “persons” you mean? This is so non interactive. Down moments? Yes. With every one of them.

 

Most memorable moment with that person?
Gah. You’re only the best I ever had. I love all the most boringest moments (my love language is time). And also the adventures <3. =P

 

Who was your most recent missed call from?

You want me to check my phone? Gosh. You think I’m a girl? I don’t always have my phone with me. (5mins later) okay here goes. TC Hsieh. Hmmm. That’s probably nath trying to contact me.

 

Who was the last person you called?
Last person I miss-called was my mom. The last person I called was Jeremy.

 

What does your 5th message in your inbox say?

It says something about them watching movie at 9pm. And asking if I wanna join.

 

Who was it from?
Danielle

 

Single or taken?
Who? Danielle? Or me? Or my girlfriend?

 

If so, by who?
Well. I’m sure the womens volleyball was won by the Brazilians.

 

What color are your eyes
Really really really really really dark green. Its practically black.

 

Whats your favorite color?

Hmmm. Actually pink. Only real men wear pink.

 

What song are you listening to right now?
Skillet. Better than drugs. Chorus: You’re better than drugs, Your love is like wine~

 

Do you like to dance?
No. I’ve tried. A few times. I’ve tried hard. I’ve also made a fool of myself pretty well.

 

Do you like to sing?
Yes. BUT. I do NOT sing well.

 

Do you believe in
Yes. Yes I do. I totally agree in

 

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes. Because we are called to love. God didn’t say “love only after the second sight”

 

How about true love?
Oh please stop with your vague questions. Do I believe in true love? Yes. I tend to blog about it in my xanga.

 

Do you believe in bros before hoes?

Are you calling my sister a whore? I’m definitely closer to my sister than my brothers.

 

Are you a whore?

You mean prostitute? Thats a very deep question. I have prostituted my body to things that I shouldn’t have. Yes. I have prostituted my mind to things that I shouldn’t have. Yes. I have prostituted my emotions to things I shouldn’t have. Yes. Does that make me a whore?

 

Are most of your friends guys or girls?
All of my friends are guys or girls. Yes. Because I don’t have friends who are guys AND girls.

 

Favorite candy?
Yes, that’s my favourite candy.

 

Favorite ice cream flavor?
Vanilla

 

Ever cried yourself to sleep?
Not that I remember. Maybe when I was really young. Right now, if I cry, I will NOT be able to sleep.

 

Ever slept on your computer?

Nope.

 

Longest you’ve used your computer?
Dunno.

 

 

Favorite smiley?
hahaha

 

Are you addicted to something?
Cola ham moi and Facebook

 

Do you consider yourself a myspace freak?
uhhhh. Is this a really old survey?

 

Do you edit your profile oftenly?
I oftenly do not. I do not have enough pics of myself. I do not usually allow pics of me to be taken.

 

Have you ever been in a fist fight?
Nope.

 

Do you want to?

Nope.

 

Have you ever thought about having sex?
Of course. It’s such an interesting thought. I’ve thought more about NOT having sex yet though. Abstinence has more benefits than pre-marital sex. How is this connected to fist fighting?

 

Have you ever babysat, if so, who?
Every single one of my siblings.

 

Have you ever waited sooo long for something you wanted to happen so bad?
Yes.

 

Are you content with your life?

Are you? Find out what life is about at Alpha Course! You get to ask questions burning in your heart. And you will find out about what life is really about yourself.

 

Who is your role model?
Jesus.

 

Whats your best feature?
People like to hang with me? I have the courage to apologise.

 

Your worst feature?
I’m pretty impatient. I put expectations on people when I shouldn’t. I’m pretty lazy. And I’m very disobedient.

 

Are you racist?
Yes. I hate the Chinese for hating all the other races.

 

Are you a sexist?
Yes. I fear the female race.

 

Do you discriminate?
Yes. I think all pigs are pork.

 

Do you talk shit?
Errrrr

 

Have you ever talked shit?
Ummmmm

 

Do you care about what other people think about you?
Yes. I do. But I choose not to act on it. What defines me is not what people think of me but how I deal with what they think.

 

Have you ever not been yourself to impress someone?
Yes. I tried to dress up handsomely. I even tried to wear accessory. But. You know. Someone didn’t care anyways.

 

Have you ever done yourself VERY pretty with so much makeup and a whole different outfit to make a guy like you?

I don’t think so.

 

Have you ever betrayed someone?
Yes.

 

Water or soda?

Water. Actually. What is soda?

 

Coke or pepsi?
Coke. Ham moi.

 

Look behind you, whats behind you?

 

Have you ever been rejected or dumped?
Yes. And no. I asked if I could join my friends for dinner. My parents didn’t allow me.

 

Have you ever thought about how school would be like if someone didnt go there?
You mean someone? No I have not thought of that question. But then again. Who is someone? Everyone?

 

Do you hate anyone?
I hate the devil for lying to me and my bro’s and sis’ non-stop.

 

Do you love anyone?

Yes.

 

Have you ever gotten drunk?
Fortunately no.

 

Would you pass a drug test?
I don’t know. Lets try.

 

Whats your locker number?
My locker doesn’t have any number. My number doesn’t have any lockers.

 

Do you have good hygiene?

So I tried counting if there WAS 100 questions here. There is only 93. I think.

 

Have you ever danced infront of the mirror?

Yes. During dance practice.

 

Ever checked out someone from the same sex?
On FB?

 

Ever bit your toenail?
Not with my teeth.

 

Ever slept outside your house?
Yes. I’ve slept away from my house many many times.

 

Been to a sleepover?
Going to one soon. I hope.

 

What’s your wallpaper?


Avatar- Last airbender characters when they are old.

 

11th person on your contact list?
Adeline. My current classmate.

 

Laptop or desktop?

Sigh. I’m tired. I would like a desktop.

 

Ever asked for money?
That’s my ONLY way of income.

 

Did you enjoy this survey?

No.