Does Life Really Suck?

​Exodus 16:3,8

And the children of Israel said to them, “Oh, that we had died by the hand of the Lord in the land of Egypt, when we sat by the pots of meat and when we ate bread to the full! For you have brought us out into this wilderness to kill this whole assembly with hunger.”

Also Moses said, “This shall be seen when the Lord gives you meat to eat in the evening, and in the morning bread to the full; for the Lord hears your complaints which you make against Him. And what are we? Your complaints are not against us but against the Lord.
Can these Israelites really be complaining about the life they have? They have just seen first-hand His outstanding miracles. The pillar of clouds and pillar of fire, the fire barrier, and the parting of the sea. How can they be complaining?

When I complain about life, and I do, I’m not really blaming the world or world system am I? I’m just being ungrateful to God, because He provides all things. And I’m not having the faith to see where God is bringing me in and through what I’m facing.

Lord, thank You for Your reminder again. Sorry for all the times that I have complained or compared. Help me really look to Your face again everyday.


Random Thought Of The Day

Have you seen those top fashion designers? They usually wear weird fashion outifts… Sometimes, I do like some of their work, sometimes I don’t. That’s fine. But I always dislike the way they themselves look.

I hope I’m not the only one who thinks so.


Greener Green

Alright, I’ve succesfully started my blog post with a bad deviation haha.

So did you know that there are a lot of Malaysians in Australia. Whether migrated or just making a living short term. And there are really a lot Sabahans there. I’m Sabahan, so I know of people who have moved there for good or are planning to. 

It’s mostly an escape, I believe. There’s just a chance for a ‘better life’ out there. And it would be a waste not to grab hold of it. 

I, for one, disagree with this ‘better life out there’ attitude. Sure we do have to move on and finish chapters every once in a while, but we should not always compare our life with someone else. We should not get tempted and jealous of the seemingly greener grass.

Last night my youth group was going through the ten commandments. And one of the commandments was to not covet our neighbour’s property. Do not steal or even lust for something that is not yours. This sparked the conversation in my mind about this: People migrate for the same reason, ‘betterment’.

But how could that be a sin? God wants us to grow. To get better. To perfect ourselves, our situation and people around us. 

Well, the difference is this. God put you in your situation. God has your best interest in mind. How do you know for sure that your ‘betterment’ idea will really be better? 

Ah, ultimately, do you trust God to have put you in the right place from the start? Or do you trust what the world has to offer?

God asks us not to worry. He’s got things in control. In fact,  He’s planned where you are now from the beginning of time. No mistakes. I don’t think it means to be content with what we have, but to be content in Him. Re-read that. It’s majorly different.

Key point. Being content or even discontented with what we have shows that our trust is either in ourselves or in our situation. Being content in God shows that our trust is in the Father who provides even when we don’t ask, who keeps all His promises, and who has a good future and a successful/fruitful path planned out for us. 

Let’s stop having the attitude that we deserve anything. And let’s start having a thankful attitude. I’m telling this to myself. Lusting is the opposite of thanksgiving.

So lust less. 

Check yourself before you think about migrating. God might not have finished with your perfectioning and molding.

Some random facts:

Lust often fuels shopping.

Lust always fuels pornography and extra-marital affairs.

Lust often fuel jealousy and sinful attitude (opposite of fruit of the spirit) towards other people.

Lust is usually disguised and blamed as an outside temptation, but we all know it’s 100% a matter of the heart. 

Sorry for this late-night straight-forward post. 


Have faith in God and be always thankful.

Romans 12:12

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

I’m So Fly

Have you ever counted your blessings? I can count. I have been very blessed all my life. Especially after I’ve given myself to ministry and God’s work.

You know, I’ve never imagined flying too much. It’s not really one of my bucket list things to travel or to experience new places. Sure, I love mountains, seas, rivers, sands, forests, and it’ll be great to see new plants and wildlife and weather outside of the island of Borneo. But it’s never been a priority or a need. Yet here I am. I’ve traveled so much in the past 13 years, I’ve probably lost count. Here’s a list of what I remember being on a plane for:

Fun: Philippines.

Conference: Melaka. Hong Kong. Wasn’t there one more?

Teenstreet Camp: Negeri Sembilan. Miri. Port Dickson. Port Dickson. Negeri Sembilan. Was there one more?

Missions: Cambodia. Cambodia.

Training: Penang (3 months leadership). Subang (3 months bible school).

Government election: KK (this was while I was in Subang).

I know this sounds crazy, but this is crazy. God has been bringing me around. Like for reals. I couldn’t have paid for all that. God provides. God not only takes care, but opens opportunity too to do extra.

If God wants you to do something, He’ll open the doors and provide for it. You just gotta walk through when it’s open.

Ok. Ciao now.

Walk Through The Journal Of Life

Is it important to journal? I really don’t know. It is kinda nice though. Because when the time comes, you get to look back at the silly things you’ve said, done, or been through. And you get to ask the hard question of whether you’ve grown. And you also get to be thankful to people and more importantly to God for helping you through, and being there all the way.

I’ve blogged for almost 9 years now. I don’t blog every day. Or every week. Or even every month. I’ve skipped a few months. If you scroll down on the right side, I have my previous blog posts arranged by month and year. And I counted, that’s 91 months of blogging right there. This post will be post number 554. I think. It’s been a great journey.

It’s super funny to read back on my old posts. And it’s nice to remember the glory days of blogging. Before Facebook, blogging was like the in thing. And hey, I’m so thankful that I saved all my posts from Xanga, because they closed down.

Sad thing is, that we post so much on Facebook, but we won’t be able to retrieve what we said. It’s like, we don’t have to take our words seriously on Facebook or Twitter. And when we do want to take it seriously, it’s really hard to find it back next time. That’s one of the most appreciative things I have about having a blog or website.

Here’s to blogging and to encouraging others to blog more too.

Panic On The Dance Floor

Life is hard

Life is a challenge

I’ve been getting these panic attacks whenever I have to plan my day. Whenever I have to plan my week. When I have to be clear about the things I need to get done, and by when. And these panic attacks consume me. I think it’s affecting my health. I’m getting these backaches and headaches.

But when I look back, I have to be grateful. God has done so much. God has used me. God has blessed me even when I am unworthy. Even through the mistakes I’ve made and sins I committed.

Lord teach me to look forward and see you just like I look back and see you.

I Can’t Complain – Relient K

Matthew 6:25-34

25 “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

28 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29 yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?

31 “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ 32 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. 33 Seek the Kingdom of God[a] above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

34 “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.

I’m A Man Now!

Really Tiny Update Of Life In Point Form


– I’ve just graduated from a 3months bible course in Tung Ling Seminary

– I’ve just emailed my first resume in my life

– I’m on season 3 of Fringe, a tv series. Like a scientific version of The X-files


Not As Tiny (Obligatory) Message Of Appreciation In Centered Paragraph


Greetings fellow earth-fellows. I’m very encouraged that my blog is being visited by humans from all over this humanity. I’ve got readers from California, France, New Jersey, Georgia (wait… those are both in the US right?), Ontario, Poland, New Jersey, Arizona, UK, Ukraine, and especially from Malaysia! I hope you guys are actually real human beings and not bots created to visit blogs to make bloggers feel good.

Thanks all for reading! I’m at your humble service.





 Even Less Tiny Sharing Of Personal Observation With Intention Of Provoking Self-Evaluation And Possible Change Resolve Among Readers


Proverbs 12:14

A man will be satisfied with good by the fruit of his mouth,
And the recompense of a man’s hands will be rendered to him.



you know,

i’ve honestly never really associated the word “fruit” and “mouth”

like the way i associate the words “fruit” and “hands”


i know that good works bear good fruit.

but why did it not occur to me that good words would too?


whatever the reason, this reminds me that we need to be careful with words.

our words really have the power to build up or destroy.


and you know, if i REALLY think about it,

words affect three categories of people.

1. the person you’re talking to

2. the person who’s talking

3. the person who’s not listening nor talking (yes everyone else in this whole world)


yes. the things we say do affect ourselves and also hurt others who were not even involved in the conversation.

how? usually not directly, i guess.

think about it.

but it’s there.


our mouths can bear bad fruit.

our mouths can bear good fruit.



Acts 4

Verses 23-24, & 29-31


As soon as Peter and John were set free, they returned to their group and told them what the chief priests and the elders had said. When the believers heard it, they all joined together in prayer to God: “Master and Creator of heaven, earth, and sea, and all that is in them!

… And now, Lord, take notice of the threats they have made, and allow us, your servants, to speak your message with all boldness. Reach out your hand to heal, and grant that wonders and miracles may be performed through the name of your holy Servant Jesus.”

 When they finished praying, the place where they were meeting was shaken. They were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to proclaim God’s message with boldness.

okay, the room probably wasnt shaken like that.



as you probably have noticed,

i’m kinda doing a study about the book of Acts.

and i made it a point to notice things about how the church was formed,

and about how the Spirit fills the people.

so you can basically say, it’s an objective study.

where the objective is to learn about the traits of the early church.


so in my previous study of the earlier chapter,

i did notice as well something similar to this verse.

When they finished praying, the place where they were meeting was shaken. They were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to proclaim God’s message with boldness.


there was a mighty movement of the holy spirit.

it was even manifested physically.

a quake.

a wind.

a noise.

and there was a change in heart, situation, or something physical.

in this scenario, They were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to proclaim God’s message with boldness.

the bible wouldnt have pointed it out if that wasnt a change.

they prayed for boldness, and they got it.


i think the main point here however,

is the same as previously.

the power of prayer.

but here, it is of petition and ummm… what’s it called…

Intercession! YES! (thanks susan, i forgot what it’s called)

we have to seek God and desire what we’re praying for.


hmmm wait… so what is interceding?

“Google define intercede”


Intervene on behalf of another.
mediate – intervene – interpose


i guess they were interceding.

on behalf of each other, the body of Christ.


so i guess im learning that we must pray.

it may seem like its bad if we are always asking for something.

but God checks it with His purpose and our hearts.



not only that, i’m reminded that prayer is not only asking God for things.

there is also praise, adoration, and thanksgiving.

at the beginning of their prayer they said 

Master and Creator of heaven, earth, and sea, and all that is in them!

yes. with an exclamation point! haha.

now that’s a good example of people who really adore their God.


so, be reminded to be thankful as well.